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For those things deleted from dA: Go to my blog, I would appreciate comments or follows or both. Thanks.
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I debated with myself if I should post this very personal account of things to all 25 million dA deviants.  Then I decided that it is significant enough to me to warrant such an exposure.

School boy romances are perhaps the sweetest.  These are times when strong feeling of affection are first noticed by a young man.  I did not notice these feelings as a youth.  The idea of getting up close and personal with a girl actually scared me.  There is no one I met that grabbed me in that way.  My youth was in an era when the very idea of a guy feeling affection for another guy was so objectionable it didn’t even enter my mind.  It was not a sane option.

So I married and had a family.  There was affection there, but nothing that made my head swoon.  I chalked it up to just not having the sexual interests of most guys my age.  I loved my wives, had sex with them, enjoyed the sex and the companionship, but all along I felt there was just something not quite right with me.  So at no time in my life did I feel that school boy romantic feeling that I assume most school boys feel.

I am now late in life.  I still don’t know why, but a young man came to me and we became friends.  We feel comfortable together.  We feel safe with one another.  We trust one another.  We talk about any and every thing.  We like it when we are just together.  We became more than just friends.  We are now truly in love.  But it is not like the loves I have had before.  This is more intense.  This feels more natural. It feels like it is how things should be.  For the first time in my life, I am having a romance that feels like I always thought romances should feel.

I am an old man now having a school boy romance. The feeling is overwhelming.  It is exhilarating.  It makes me feel like a whole, normal person.  I am doing silly school boy things of affection, and he doesn’t mind.  He knows where I am coming from.  I know it will not last forever.  But for now I will treasure every moment I have with him.  It is how things should be.

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FictonArtAuthor Featured By Owner 7 hours ago
Thanks for the favs. :)
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simpleguyfa Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2015
I love you :heart: awesome photo :D 
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illicitDreamer Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2015
very kind of you.  :D
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illicitDreamer Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2015
Hey
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illicitDreamer Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2015
I have good moments and bad moments but in balance I'm doing ok.
Thanks for asking.
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FictonArtAuthor Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2015
Thanks for the fav. :)
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illicitDreamer Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2015
Glad to do it. :-)
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FictonArtAuthor Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2015
:)
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